A Word to the Wise:

“If you have one foot on yesterday, and one foot on tomorrow, then you’re pissing on today.”

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It’ll ruin your day….

 

 Day 312

This quote seems to be an AA favorite.  I interpret it in two ways:

  1. Stay present.
  2. Both feet need to be in the program. 

For the first five months of sobriety my feet were ungrounded.  It was impossible to stay present; all I could think about was my directionless future, and the security of going back to where I came from.  Having no idea whom the eff I was, why I was always so depressed, and whether or not I was actually an alcoholic, my thoughts were constantly neurotically ricocheting off the walls in my brain.  To make things easier, (aka 1,000 times more complicated), I told lies.

 

I told lies to my friends in California, and said that I was in AA because it was that or a DUI; I told them I thought it was stupid and that I would be back.  I told lies to my friends in Connecticut, saying I wouldn’t go to California because I knew I needed AA. Everything was a contradicting clusterf*ck. I guess the trouble was I believed all of my own bullshit, because I truly couldn’t stay put long enough to make a decision.

Indecision was killing the “today’s.”   It wasn’t until I finally went with my gut, surrendered to the program, and jumped with both feet, that I began enjoying the present. 

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3 thoughts on “A Word to the Wise:

  1. Michelle says:

    Welcome home 🙂

  2. Make sure you never criticize the program, unless you like being peed on yourself.

  3. biochicklet says:

    I criticize what people say at meetings all the time. That is not the program. If a person sticks to their own life and relating experiences with another person, there is no way someone could be hurt. They are free to come and go as they please. Drink or don’t drink. By the way there is no reason to fear anyone in AA if you are an adult and behave as one. I have been going to meetings for 10 years and have never bothered anyone or been bothered,

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